Revelations

Driving home from uni today..
an issue that I've been thinking about before just popped into my mind..

How did it come to be that most of the guys I know have such wonderful wives and marriages, and yet are still able to go philandering outside?

They have their fun outside, and when they get home, their loving wife is at home waiting for them.. what gives?

And me.. I've never strayed..
nothing but dedication, loyalty and devotion..

What have I to show for in my life thus far?
I'm left sucking the lemons life has thrown at me

and the sudden revelation struck me..

Did they marry the woman they loved?
Or did they marry a woman who loves them instead?

Because, I cannot imagine cheating on someone I love.
Or at any other time for that matter.

Or hell, maybe it's just me..

And why must it always be one loving more than another?
Or one giving more than another?
What the hell is this? Some sort of transaction?

Oh I'm sure that there are couples out there who love each other equally and totally..
but they are few and far between.. the exception rather than the norm.

But it's a brilliant strategy I must admit.
Find a good girl who loves you more than you love her.

Just show her that you love her enough..
keep her on the hook long enough,
and soon she'll be eating out of your hands.

Then get married, have a secure family life..
and keep doing what you've been doing along..
looking for other women..

Man, I've seen this happen enough times..
and it's taken me 30 and a half god-damn years to realise it.


And as I thought about it..
this revelation ain't gonna do jack-shit for me..

I have to be true to myself..
I can't do all that.. I can't lie, cheat and steal..
esp to someone who has put her life in my hands..

It don't matter who loves who more or all that sort of crap..
as long as we both want to be together, who cares?

And if that's the case.. then who can stop us?

Easier said than found unfortunately.

Does my better half even exist?

My quest continues.